move on?!

i just don't understand people sometimes!! in two separate conversations pete and i had with someone this week we were basically told that we need to 'move on and go back to how things used to be'. what?! things can never, and will never, go back to how it used to be. for me personally, the trust is completely gone. in fact, i don't even LIKE some individuals now. honestly, if i never see some of them ever again, it won't bother me. damage is done. and it goes deep. i personally was attacked-as a mother! since day one of getting married, i have had to deal with issues with people for various things. my trust has been broken lots of time, then 'repaired'. well, now enough is enough for me personally. peter and i did not cause this-you guys did. whether you were directly involved, or just 'standing by'. it's so frustrating when these incidents get brought back up-and then progress isn't made!! and who are you guys protecting?! for heavens sake, if you say you didn't do it (but you obviously do know who did), just tell us!!!! you want to work on building back a relationship? then start with that. just tell us. and one condition will always stay firm with us-get rid of those damn goats if you want to see them down there! seriously, why is a fricken' animal more important??? unfortunately peter and i have to cover all bases so we don't have any more incidents like this; and that includes not allowing our sons to ever visit down there while those animals are still there. do i need to repost pictures of what he looks like after being around them? or should i make a video of his labored breathing and coughing after every time they came back from visiting? you can make your choice on what you want to do with that. but if there's ever family visiting there (like rumor has it that some are coming up from out of state to visit), you want a family photo, you want us included in a holiday, or just see them for a weekend etc, etc, etc, it won't EVER happen if those goats are still there. that's your choice; not ours. if you're satisfied with only seeing them at a trailer, then that's fine. remember, you guys made your bed; now you can lie in it. i just feel sad that two innocent little boys are going to have suffer the loss of what was a great relationship with their family all because someone couldn't keep her mouth shut....

you want to see the boys sometime and visit at the trailer, that's fine. just call and ask. but don't talk to us again about all this unless you drop the attitude of 'move on and go back to how it was' attitude (because it can't ever happen). and don't talk to us unless you're will to make progress. it's stupid that the conversation has to always keep going in a circle.